Hysterectomy - finality to Infertility. Check
Failed adoption - thought with our infertility we were better off never having gotten pregnant and therefore never had a miscarriage... So this is what it feels like. Check
Lash out at loved ones - Isaac was yelled at for taking too long to do homework and questioning why I was yelling at him. Sleeping in guest room because I can't face my patient loving husband, despite the fact he is in pain with a kidney stone. Check
Cry and have melt down - lay in guest bed alone, crying in self pity. Check
Today is the day I broke. I feel like crap, mentally and physically. I am depressed. I am angry. I am sad. I am hurt. I am bitter. I am broken.
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